Second chances

I had a chance
He had that chance
We all had a go at it
I blew my chance
I soiled my record
It was a complete debacle
My once white garment
Has blemishes all over
I betrayed your love
I was wrong
Ignorance is not an excuse
I apologize
I want to close that page
I want to rip it off
I want to burn it
I want a new garment
I want a new page
I want another go at it
I want a second chance

Identity Crisis

Someone else had taken over me
I dont know who i am
What i am doing why am i here
Once in a while
I dwell on the nostalgia
Where did that person go
It seems like a lifetime away
I was so happy
So contented with my life
But now its like a rat race
I want all their attention
I want to meet to standards
But the bar keeps getting higher
Contentment is now a thing of the past
I am no longer in control
I have become a puppet
A thin stem that moves with the wind
There seems to be no way out
I must belong to that clique
I changed my whole life
I need to search myself
Why was i born
What are my standards
I need to stand for my self
I need to retrieve my self
From the puppeteer's hands

Fright!

Take a deep breath
Close your eyes
Clear your head
Just 2 minutes till show time

"I can do it"
"I am not afraid"
"Be enthusiastic"
Time to get on

Dont look at the crowd
Focus on your role
Act it well
You are almost done

I think i can look now
Just a sneak peek
All those eyes staring at me!
Brain freeze!

My list

I just made a list of things
Its about you
Its of the things you do
Its to show you that i care
That i love you
For everything you do

It goes on and on

Oh
The list is all so long
my hand is acheing
It goes on and on
Oh
And now i'm done with it
I show it to you
It goes on and on

D'you remember
When we first met
It was you who talked to me
And that time
when i felt so sad
You were there to comfort me

It goes on and on

Oh
And when i got in trouble
You always saved me
It goes on and on
Oh
And those that we did
Were so exciting
It goes on and on

Remember that time
That we went travelling
And we got lost
You found us a helper
Or that time
I almost fell of a hill
You reached out
In time to saved me

It goes on and on

Oh
Even when we had fights
You always loved me
It goes on and on
Oh
And any time that i smile
You're always happy
It goes on and on

You taught me
To follow up my faith
And you taught me
To be me
You made me to
Loosen up a bit
And you made me
To be free

It goes on and on

Oh
You shine your light
They was jesus told us to
It goes on and on
Oh
I love you my friend
I'll never forget you
It goes on and on

Opportunity knocks once

It was two tears ago
That day seems like yesterday
It was you and i
I thought it was vague
I thought i immagined it
I thought it was a lie

Its too late
Now you're gone
I tried to find you
I tried to reach you
To say those words once
thats all i want

Maybe i should have told you
(I should have told you)
What would you have said
Would you just laugh it off
Would you take me serious
Did you feel it too

Its too late
Now you're gone
I tried to find you
I tried to reach you
To say those words once
thats all i want

I dont care if you laugh it off
(I dont)
I dont care if you take me serious
I dont know if you felt it too
And now i cant

Its too late
Now you're gone
I tried to find you
I tried to reach you
To say those words once
thats all i want

God knows what he was doing
(He does)
He knows why he didnt let me say it
He always has a plan
And concerning you
I know that

Its too late
Now you're gone
I tried to find you
I tried to reach you
To say those words once
thats all i want

Opportunity knocks once
Opportunity knocks once
Opportunity kmocks once....

Insomnia

Toss and turn, toss and turn
She moves in that regular pattern
She closes her eyes
Trying to drown the thoughts
Trying to clear her head
All to no avail
Never felt do insecure
Never felt this way before
Why cant i just get a picture?
What do i do?
Where do i go?
Why am i at a crossroad
I should stick to the regular patterns
But i am not so sure
I have a lot to discover
All the cargo i have placed under
I want an adventure
But i dont want a wrong evnture
I love the things i do
But i want new things to do
I want to innovate
But i am afraid
What if i am hated?
What if i am made fun of?
Toss and turn, toss and turn
She moves in that regular pattern
From dusk till dawn

Migraine

So many thoughts rack my brain
The state called confusion
That state is where i find myself
The pain grows worse
As confusion mounts its flag
On the mast in my head

I find myself on a highway
Bordered by things i cannot see
I squint, i lean outwards
The pain grows worse
As i try to move close to them
They keep moving away from me

I am lost in a thick forest
Filled with whispering trees
And eerie animal noises
The pain grows worse
As i try to decipher
All the sounds i hear

I sit in a bus
So many noises around me
Some directed towards me
The pain grows worse
I cant think straight
As i close my eyes

Oblivion

I look around me
But i dont see
I listen to lots of things
But i dont hear
I am told a lot of things
But i dont understand
Everything is moving so fast
My head is spinning
I cant keep my balance
So much is going on around me
But i dont notice
My innocence has overpowered me
I have been overwhelmed by my nostalgia
I am lost in my present world
I cant find my footing
This place seems so strange
I dont know all these people
Although i see them everyday
I have fallen into a huge pit
Blind to the affairs going on above me